deception
Monday, September 25, 2006
7:18 PM
how many more lies must i endure.somehow, i'm ALWAYS inferior.
no matter WHAT you say.
i don't DESERVE to know things about you.
because i'm not a FRIEND.
maybe that post was really what you felt.
that i'm not good enough.
how many years has it been?
3?
i guess i still can't compare to someone you've met for almost a year.
neither can i compare with someone you've met for a few months.
i'm nothing.. aren't i?
all those white lies... all those nice words... don't count.
and when i feel like there's no one there. there really isn't.
i guess. i'm NOT thinking too much after all.
but what else CAN i think.
and yet...
there's no one here to watch the tears fall down my cheek.
because... just like YOU said.
3 years of friendship and still...
they don't notice.
.school.
.12.00nn.
.CME.
.feeling the pang of being kept in the dark.
maybe i really don't DESERVE to know somethings.
cause i'm not the one you tell things to.
i;m the one you tell other people NOT to tell things to.
you have no idea.
when word reaches my ears.
how it hurts.
cause i'm no SPECIAL.
i don't understand. if i'm not on there.
why...
did you tell me... i was.
i wonder who's the one whose keeping all the lies...
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.